Only insecure and immature people get offended

I'll start with my blunt opinion "There is no such thing as a political correctness". Even when the term political correctness is used and viewed as pejorative more and more nowadays, it's underlying ideas are crooked and simply have to be smashed. Since when the politics and correctness have anything in common in real life? These two words are practically their own antonyms. All we seem to do is battle the politics as the whole reality of it is nothing else but deception, manipulation and lies. It's almost like an entity attracting an army of spineless opportunists who we then call politicians. Political theories we can read and study are filled with true meaning of what it means to run and manage state and society, but they seem to be detached, not applied in real life. That's why I see the term political correctness having about the same meaning as delicious excrement, or fecal goodness. Unless you are into that kind of crap... Pun intended. That's why P.C. movements and it's  applications have to be opposed, questioned and dismantled from it's unstable, irrational, illogical, self-contradicting foundations. I would simply rename it from P.C. to P.A., meaning Political Agenda. Because it is not about fighting for human rights anymore, but silencing different opinions and closing the debate. Suppression of free speech cloaked in noble ideals. 

  Offended, triggered, microaggressions and safe-spaces. The further it goes, the more ridiculous and surreal it appears. 

   I'ts difficult for me to imagine, how would I react some 15 years ago, if somebody said to me that in a future, in a few years' time these will be the issues we will be dealing with. Trying to protect people from being offended, doing a witch hunts on those who dare to question things, or those who even accidentally say something incorrect and then do smear campaigns based on out of context quotations and assumptions, making them guilty by association.  

     A mature, confident person simply doesn't get offended, doesn't feel triggered or even disrespected. Mature person sees any criticism as either objective, worthy of thinking about or sees it as stupid, shallow, making it not worthy one's stress and energy. If you get hurt by anybody questioning your opinions, I ask did you ever went through a bad break up? Have you had your soul smashed by your ex? I am not seeing any TV news, articles and outrage about some bad breakups where one person's heart got broken chewed up by partner. And from my perspective and experience that shit is real, haha. That stuff breaks you apart, it can take a good amount of time to regroup from that. But some crybabies feel triggered when they get misgendered and media actually pay attention (because it pays them I assume). Millions of people go through mental or physical domestic abuse for years either as partners or children, but media and society focus is on insecure, self victimizing people who feel disrespected when they're religious and political views are challenged. Only insecure people are loud about being disrespected. Respect is not your right. That has to be earned by your achievements, being a living example for others, creating something worthy, fighting the right causes. And such person will never demand it, because he/she is already self confident. You can criticize Elon Musk, Richard Branson or Mark Zuckerberg as much as you want and you will never see them shouting that you disrespected them. They would probably ignore you, or respond calmly. Or might try to help your sorry life. 

 Another pure disease is overprotection of religions, making them near untouchable. They do not deserve any special treatment than any other ideology or political movement. I judge religions on how their members behave and interact outwards. As more sceptical guy, not believing in any form of god as he or she is portrayed by any religions, lack of any real evidence I can only judge it as ideology. I wonder when will somebody jump into all religions and raise question of what gender should be god viewed as. Unless they already started it, because there's a vast choice of genders nowadays, too. I am just saying it to prick the hornet's nest even more. Religion should be a personal and communal experience and dedication. Whenever it is pushed out of these circles, forced unto others demanding protections and privileges, it's an ideology and political movement.

  I can't come up with anything anybody could say to me that would offend or trigger me. I get angry about human stupidity, lies, corruption, unreliable people and mostly myself. The person who seriously pisses me off is me. I see the stupid, self sabotaging behaviors like wasting my time on phone, watching netflix, procrastinating, avoiding exercise, not being the best I can be as husband, father, artist etc. Knowing these flaws, facing them is exactly what forces me to resolve them. Avoiding it, sugarcoating, apologizing, ignoring the reality will never solve anything in my life. I try to judge myself objectively, but I can't beat myself up emotionally, also. It has to be a rational process. Feeling sorry for myself would only cause internal misery, depression and resentment towards myself. Rational deconstruction of what I'm doing with my life. And when logic doesn't work, emotional inner pressure does the job with questioning like "will this bring me the life I want, do I deserve to sit on my ass and do nothing today? Will I be happy with this waste of a week in ten years time?". And there is a long journey for me ahead, I am still a huge time waster. 

   Now, we have a generation of young adults who can't face reality, who can't bare adversity, criticism and different opinions. I feel like these people were either sheltered from any conflict and living in a dream world, pampered by their parents and society, let run wild and not raised properly, became stubborn and egoistic without any attempt to listen to other opinions and blindly demanding their own while playing the victims. That is exactly what kid's tantrum is. Kids cry when they can't get the cookie, they scream and demand what they want and if parents comply, that behavior will only become normal for them. Just to mention, the other "camp" is people raised by indoctrination. Raised by a way of pretty much brainwashing into certain ideology or religion. From early age being forced into believing and not questioning. No need to write about ideological and religious indoctrination, loads of books, articles and talks are available from highly acclaimed writers. 

  In our modern culture, there's a term, a label we use for people who are soft and fearful, behaving cowardly, easily fatigued and whining too much, those who hurt emotionally too quickly. We all know this term. Pussies. So I say, only pussies get offended. Does it offend you? Does this statement therefore label you as pussy? Feeling triggered? Good! That's exactly what you need. You need to face intellectual and emotional adversity and conflicts to grow up as a human being. You need this so you are able to to withstand real problems in life. Death of relatives, injustice, tragedies, malice, career struggles, raising up a child, constant waves of duties and errands which an adult life brings.  There are no shortcuts in life for growing up, you have to deal with obstacles, not demand others to get them away for you!

Posted on February 25, 2018 .

The 2nd. : Well, there might be something wrong...

With building my own website came a complicated situation. How to organize my artworks into only a few galleries for ease of use and orientation? Because of amount of various styles, I would need to create some load of sub-pages and galleries which then would end up with only a few works in them. 

 So the "Dark side" and "Bright side" emerged as a simplification of my works. Splitting my artwork with bit unclear measure into two main galleries alongside the tattoo gallery and one dedicated to skulls being all accessible right from homepage. 

 Now I will dissect the dark works a bit more.  Back in 2008 I needed some quality prints of my creations for a small concert/exhibition. Lot of effort for no feedback pretty much, but that's how it goes, had to learn my lesson and be more humble about my qualities, haha. 

 I went to a printing company where I actually worked for couple of months back in 2005 I think, so I knew the guys there. As my former supervisor was printing things for me, he took a look at my works. He saw some more mellow, fantasy style things and then pure dark and morbid ones. So he mentioned that he appreciates my works, but why do I do such a gloomy stuff, he asked. At that point of my life, I was young guy having dilemmas with current society,  culture, state of the world, where I couldn't see myself fitting in neatly. Standard teenage, younger person issues :D. So my response to his question was quite reflecting that. I said, that with what I see around ourselves, world we live in (whatever wars, corruption, injustice etc.).. these artworks are like reflection of how I perceive things, like an outlet of my emotions, my thoughts. His reply to that I remember to a single word. "Well, then there might be something wrong". Meaning with me.

 I remember this work was one of those printed, so you can understand why the guy was bit uncertain about my state of mind :D

I remember this work was one of those printed, so you can understand why the guy was bit uncertain about my state of mind :D

I didn't continue in this direction of our chat, I guess I didn't know what to say to him. Even when the negativity, the bad and horrible crap we can see around us is not my direct muse or inspiration for years, I guess it was part of my mental turmoils. My interest in seeing what the hell is going on around us is still there, I do read, watch or listen about current events geopolitics, culture, society etc., and it can be damn depressing. So I will put few more thoughts on this. 

 One can live in a bubble, wear a pink glasses or go down the negative downward spiral. None of these routes is right, for me it is about finding the right control of knowing the bad around us and accepting it and trying to make a happy life for myself and close people in my life if possible and just appreciate the nice things more. True is, now you can flood yourself with the most horrific stuff from around the globe within seconds online. That wasn't here some 20 years ago. Nobody can solve or mentally process all of that anyway. I'm starting to preach too much here :D

  I got quote for you which I heard a while ago and really resonated with me. "Being sane in an insane society, means being insane". So, yeah. True, I think. Whenever I go down that route of reading, watching and listening about how much is the world in a state of mess for too long, I have to regroup and shake up myself. But being completely oblivious to it, desensitised, blind folded is just being in delusion or insanity. 

  Sometimes I have to give myself emotional bitch slap and stop whining. World was always a mess, it was never perfect and never will be, that's how it is. I just need to see more of that good around me. Knowing the bad, accepting it or changing it if I can and live with positive approach.

 I have to say, the former workmate was right. There is something wrong with me :D. If I wouldn't see that I got some inner roller coaster, I would never think I need to improve and organize my head. And that's the positive side of it :) 

The end of emotional and spiritual rant... For now. 


Posted on January 22, 2018 .

The first blog

 Hello, folks.

Right on a funny, self critical note.. For some reason I am thinking somebody might be actually interested in what I think, so I decided to start blogging. I would like to open myself a bit to those who like my work, to give something more personal of what's behind my art as I enjoy other artists reveal their processes. Whether it's musicians, movie makers, painters, etc. Whenever I find out what is behind the scenes, it gives the art much more value, builds up my appreciation and it deepens the connection between artist, creation and me as a viewer, listener, consumer.  I got to say, I have a overload of inner chatter, too much thoughts, so I'd like to share those, too. But one brilliant quote says something like "if you don't have anything wise to say, be quiet". So it's a bit of a dilemma for me, haha.  Plan is to deliver one short blog a week with content mostly continuing from previous blog's train of thoughts (or flood of nonsense). Whenever I post up a blog, I will announce it on my facebook and instagram profiles. So enough of introduction, here it is. 

No.1 "Contemplating on one's creative process." 

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One of the biggest puzzles of my own art path is actually the question which path to take. Looking on works I come up with, ideas which emerge in my head somehow spontaneously or those which are composed more consciously and being aware of what I want to draw or paint.. I end up wondering why do I always go after something totally different? Why can't I just follow one style, technique and get super awesome at it? If becoming awesome is actually possible for me I wonder, haha. 
  Sure, there are styles and techniques which are my favourites, but I'm always  sticking my head into new things. 
Back in 2005 when I worked for only a short period of time as a cameraman for a local TV, we covered a small meeting of Slovak illustrator with kids in a library in my hometown Vranov nad Toplou. As I looked through books he made illustrations for, I really appreciated the fact how differently each book was illustrated. Various styles, colour scales, approach and feel. Then during Q&A time I actually even asked how can he as an artist find always different ways how to do his illustrations. He himself, said that was a bit more professional question (after all questions from kids)... Shame on me for not remembering even a name of artist. His answer didn't give much light to my question, he seemed like that is simply part of his job and took it naturally. Now I see how far back I was always up for trying out new ways of expressing myself. With any technique or style I devoted myself to for some months or weeks I eventually became bored with, cornered or stuck on a plateau.. And I went on another route with the same ending after some time. What started to happen and still happens is merging and carrying of knowledge, practice and skills from one style to another, mutually improving each path. Now after years I keep on coming back to certain styles, moving them forward and improving, while keeping my eyes on new, like  digital art, but also banning myself from some, like airbrush, which I find as a too difficult and expensive to start with,

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"Confusing, schizophrenic or maybe bipolar outcomes of my work?..a disorder of a portfolio :)"

I guess, I should ask more for open criticism of what people think about my actual work. If you'd like to criticise my stuff, please go for it. Either in comments or in email. My other half does it occasionally and it's a good educational slap across my ego. I can be self critical endlessly, but hearing it from others is very valuable.

From  my perspective, viewing my portfolio as a whole, it's a bit of a mess. Whenever I take a look at my Instagram feed, I find it weird that I post a total mix of works. Tattoos I do, then acrylic paintings, water colour pencil drawings/paintings, ink and pen drawings of various styles. From gloomy dark, through some blends of fantasy, modern styles to some fairy tale, cartoony, merry coloured works like some illustrations for kids' books. So my plan for upcoming weeks is to create different profiles on social media which will be dedicated to a specific line of my work or life, so that the viewer will get to see only what he really is into while having an option to follow also profiles with my other stuff. 

 If you ever were advised by somebody on your career, you definitely heard about picking your own niche, profession, focusing on one skill set, becoming best at it and gaining admirers of that particular thing, customers and employers looking for your specialty. Well, not my case. 
If I have to remain honest on my art journey and do what I want to do.. This is it. Always experimenting, always reaching for new. Creative exploration, which is also reflection of my thoughts, emotions and inspirations. So this is what Disorderart means. A name of my creative journey, which simply emerged out of it. 

 What about you? What are your creative puzzles? Do you feel entrapped by one style or are you all over the place like me? 
Share your own struggles and bugs in creativity, or drop me a comment on what do you think about my artworks or this first blog. 


Posted on January 14, 2018 .